Lalalalalala

Bored. Drawing out finalised forms of Hikari Hopeix and Replex Cosmos. I usually have varieties to them, but I may finalised their forms, except for Maple Story forms. XD Couldn't resist. XD

<3 Mood

Man, i'm really lovestruck this time. The guy I like, (not going to reveal until... Well, never mind) is really nice... I think I won't be able to find anyone I love more than him, personally. Whenever I see him, my heart goes slightly weak, as if temptation to flirt with him. And NO! I am not a flirt!
Time for a silly poem.



<3What I Wish To Say To You <3

I looked at you
Several metres away
But even when you are so close,
It feels to far away

I looked away,
Thinking of something to say.
But when i turned again,
You had already walked away...

What I wish to say to you
Is nothing but the truth!
If you look into my eyes,
You'll see it's void of lies

What I wish to say to you,
It will never come true
And deep inside my heart,
It's waiting for your love...

Why won't you look my way,
It's like this everyday.
The longing, the bearing,
All the held in pain.

I really wish to tell you,
But my heart won't let me do so.
I'm hiding everything,
I really wish to scream!

What I wish to say to you
Is nothing but the truth!
If you look into my eyes,
You'll see it's void of lies

What I wish to say to you,
It will never come true
And deep inside my heart,
It's waiting for your love...

Why can't you see I'm hurting?
Why can't I just say it?
Why can't I just admit it?
Why won't you look my way...

What I wish to say to you
Is nothing but the truth!
If you look into my eyes,
You'll see it's void of lies

What I wish to say to you,
It will never come true
And deep inside my heart,
It's waiting for your love...

What I Wish to say to you,
It's nothing but "I love you"!
But everytime I try,
My tongue gets twisted inside.

What I wish to say to you...

What I wish to say to you...

What I wish to say to you,
It finally has come true,
Now deep inside my heart... ... ...

It has your love.

<3<3

Yes Yes, it's crap. I couldn't think of anything much after it.

Sigh...

Bored now... COE got postponed, i'm so DAMM pissed... I feel like every bit of creativity has been sucked out of me...

Currently talking over MSN to my crush... Kya... really <3 him. He told me that too, but i wonder if it is just to cheer me up, or is it really from the bottom of his heart? Ah, that rhymes.

Gonna make Wei Ren eat bean sprouts one day... SO GONNA DO IT!

Tuesday= Day for going AMK Hub to pay school fees, followed by going to Popular to buy stuff. YIPPE! No, it's not scissors...

Learning Italian song, Time to say goodbye. Followed by a jap song, Red DragonFly. ARGH.

Working on a silly manga of mine... Gonna suck, i tell you.

My singing seems to be detoriating.

Addicted to the songs, Secret of My Heart(detective Conan Ending... don't know what) and The Way I Loved You by Taylor Swift.

Blogspot screwed up on me

Sigh...

These days, I feel so sad, so tired... I made up a silly poem as usual. But i misplaced the paper somewhere. So I can't type it here. Sad. T_T No new chapter yet for my fanfiction blog.

NOOOOO....

OH MY BLOODY CRAP!

My results sucked! Gonna die... Got a hell of a scolding from mum...

Chinese: 46/100
Maths: 46/100
English: 71.5/100
Science: 78/100 :D
History: 44/100 like that.
Literature: 40 +++
Art: 48/100

As you can see, all my failed subjects are failures by usually a few marks. T_T I died....
As least i got A1 for science and A2 for English...

ARGH!!!!!!

WHAT THE HELL!!!! Man, my hairdresser cut my hair till it's super short, and everyone says I look like a guy... T_T Wah, so mean... I guess I do look like a guy...

Chinese Exam sure die, english exams sure die, in other words, MYE sure die.

YAY!

Wah, really happy today man! Choir got Silver for SYF! I thought we would get bronze. Reasons? We screwed up in certain parts.... Like Tenor screwed up in Salmo... Went a pitch higher or so... So afraid.

BUT, it seem like our hard work has paid off! YIPPEE!

I broke up with a certain someone... And I don't feel like talking to the guys in school... All because of a stupid caterpie.... So angry.... Boys think they are so tough at times, I really hate it when they think that way! GRRR!

New chapter....

Chapter 4

Hikari retreated to her private spot on the school ceiling after being dragged away by the two naughty boys. She felt so tired.

"Why... Why are boys like this? I wish I never joined the Prefect's group... I stick out like a sore thumb... Besides... The boys there infuriate me!" An anger mark appeared on her head as she thought back to one of the days when she had a sma;; 'chat' with Replex Timrel.

///Flash back///

"Hey Hikari, are you really alright?"

"Yeah, but I should be saying that to you Replex, you haven't been your cheerful and playful self lately. What's wrong?"

"Effects of a bad weekend, that's all."

"Haha, very funny."

"IN YOUR FACE!"

"Now you are sounding more like yourself."

"Very funny."

"But seriously, are you trying to worry the heck out of me?"

"Yup!"

"Grrr... JERK!" SLAP!

"What was that for!?"

"I had it... You guys always like to act tough, and act as if nobody cares! You always like to care for me when I'm sad, but not the other way round! Why are you guys always doing that!?" I pointed an accusing finger at Replex, who went speechless.

"I-I!"

"Shut up! I don't want to hear anymore words for you! And I always liked you Replex! I liked you alot, so i wanted you to be happy! But you... ARGH! I HATE YOU!" With that, I ran off, crying for the first time, leaving a stunned Replex...

///End Flashback///

Hikari shook her head. She had lost control of her emotions and blurted out every single word of anger she could at Replex, about how angry she felt. She felt a tap at her shoulder, and saw the guilty culprit.

"What do you want!?"

"I'm just here to apolo-"

"Forget it! I don't want your apology! I should have never joined the Prefect Group in the first place!"

"Wa-Wait! W- What's this?"

Hikari shoved her tie and badge, plus a letter into Replex's hands.

"Give this to Brenja! Tell him I QUIT!" With that, Hikari stomped off to the staff room to enjoy some peace and quiet, while Replex stood there, tongue-tied.

"W-What have I done?"

That's the fourth chapter... It partially depicts my feelings.

SL INVEST IS OVER!!!!!!!!

Wah sianz. Finally the SL investiture is over. Nerve wrecking man.

7.45-12.15 Normal school time.
12.15-2.00 Rehersal. No oral whee! Wore clothes inside of my uniform. Clothes as in COSTUME! Poor Hui Yee Senior... Is that how you spell her name? (shrugs)
2.00-2.30 Ushering(I completely sucked at this) and arrival of guest of honor i think.

Then we had the walk-in. I was so nervouse i think i accidently went a bit too stiff. I sit so still, that my back ached cause there were 3 speeches... Ow my back... Then they gave the tie. I think i nearly goofed up on that part. Nearly bow wrong direction. Haha, they gave me a tied tie. :D Lucky. Then we watched a video after changing. LOL the ending picture was a picture of Ben (ducky) senior. Then we performed. Keric goofed up on the first part, he forgot to come out. Idiot. I goofed on the finale for our dance. When "whose that girl" and Keric spun over to the other side, for god-knows-what reason(sorry if i am being... Err. racist? here), his elbow hit my forehead. Owchies. We performed rather well. The sec 4s looked so funny. Alvin's smile creeped the hell outta me.

Then after that, i was really sad cause i had to go for choir VCH practice. Aiyaya, i missed Siti's bday bash! I wanna see cake getting smack right in her face... Never mind, Wei Ren will show me the video. Anyway, Keric turned up in the choir uniform/// I TOLD HIM TO CHANGE TO SCHOOL UNIFORM! D: <

Yeah, we went to VCH, so tiring, stood up for 1 hour. Move here move there. Not bad lah. Waited for dad at school and got a mosquito bite. HEY!

That's all fah now!
Ilin

WHEE!

Yay, today was SL practice! Although I did nearly collaspe... Kidding! I was so tired... Keric was emo-ing, Siti was teaching, and Wei Ren and Kairo were listening to music... Benjamin was acting a little hyper, I think he's on sugar rush or something, Tammy was dancing and Alvin. L was playing with a mop...

It was well, I just need to remember what side i need to go. Wei Ren and I tickled Alvin like no tomorrow! I did tell him I would poke him for yesterday! ^_^ Anyway, when we practice the finale thingy, i made a wrong move, and in the end, at the "Don't Know but noone better wear the same dress as me!" I was suppose to be doing the same movement as Siti and Wei Ren, but I went the wrong side, so I did my own... It was crap, and LOOKED SO WRONG!

But it was fun. I haven't really got the beat right, so Keric and I were basically copying Siti. The seniors asked why was there no kissing. I wanted to smack them right in the face with the mop. But I can't, unfortunately.

Our costumes were stupid. Wei Ren wore, what? Casual? I wore pretty much casual, all I need is a skirt! Keric dressed like a teacher. :P Oh my, we have to friggin' tie the offical tie, and I have to tie my tie the fastest! NO!

Signing off,
Ilin- Hopeix

Sigh...........................................................

Today is the last day of school.

But it's DOOMSDAY FOR ME! Why? PROGRESS REPORT!

Guess what? I'm one of the lucky 15 that passed Maths. But it's a borderline pass. 50. Never mind. But i failed Chinese! I got a F9! I have never gotten an F9 before, so i nearly fainted. I only got 3 As, 2 A2s for History and Lit(YAY!) and A1 for D&T! I'm so happy! But no As for English. My sis was mad at me for getting borderline pass, but well...

God, I thought i would at least get like, 37-41 marks for my Chi... Very EMO. My friend Siti, was rather upset though, cause she did not get 8As... She only got 6. But cheer up Siti, I'm sure next Term you'll get the 2As! Besides, i only got 3 and FAILED one subject, so you are WAAAAAAAYYYY better than me. BE HAPPY!

God, I'm hyper. Well, I found out Kairo likes Raecia. Well, i don't mind, if he's happy with her, I'm happy for him. Love, in my opinion, is making sure that the one you love is happy. But i really wished he told me... Never mind, I've got someone else in mind anyway. Of course, Siti and Wei Ren know, along with Alvin Laiman. ^_^

My class was rather fruastrating today. I mean, I got so fed up at different people, even if I don't show it. Changing places with Jia Xin during Chinese class is what I am NOT suppose to do, but she kept buggin' me every single Chinese lesson before that, so i did it to please her. She doodled on my table! T_T My clean table... Nicholas was annoying as usual, but I cheered up after awhile, when i saw my SL friends.

Of all the people i trust most in the ENTIRE school, are the Student Leaders, especially Wei Ren, Siti, Keric(Mr. EMO), Leon, Alvin Laiman, Doreen. And the teachers of course. I don't know why, but i seem to get along with them naturally. Of course, my classmates don't exactly like me for that, Kyeong Sup calls me teachers' pet. Sad. T_T I can't help me. My friends don't like my annoying accent either, but I can't help it! I mean, i had it since I was born, and even my sisters don't have the same accent as I do. I feel so pathethic...

Even if i have people i trust, i can't really say out my feelings well... I can't even WRITE it out... I think it's because I have always been betrayed... So i have a tendency to keep my feelings bottled WAY in my heart... Even in my very private diaries, I can never write out all my feelings, I don't know why. Well, that's all for now!

Signing off via Dimension Screen,
Ilin
Feeling very depressed and bottled up

Choir~ And a new chapter!

Lemme see, where should i start? Oh, i got scolded by Mrs Erp today. Just because i didn't practice for so long means i lost my touch man! I do practice at home when my throat feels better, and i can sing better than some of my seniors! They can go off pitch. D:

Now, time for a new chappy!

Chapter 3

The next day, Hikari typed on her laptop in her classroom. It was a free day, and the students were allowed to wander about the school premises. She usually sat at the back of the class, because she need not learn what they were taught in Sec 2, it was WAY too easy for her.

"Hikari!" yelled two voices, making Hikari jump. She turned around to see Andrew and Kermic, grinning like mad idiots. She was about to turn away when she was dragged out of her chair.

"H-Hey wait a sec!"

"Nuh uh! No waiting!"

"We're gonna show you fun!"

With that, the two boys dragged off the poor little girl, who could not do anything cause her arms were caught by the boys. She sweat-dropped.

"But i got work to do..."

Heheheh.... I am SO evil.

Fanfiction chapter 2!

Yea, like the post says, it's chapter 2. I doubt anyone reads, but I'm still posting. :D

Chapter 2

Downstairs, Andrew and Kermic was busy sipping their cool drinks, before their choir practice. "Hey Kermic, what do you think of that Hikari girl? You know, our manager." Kermic looked up at his senior with a curious look. Putting down his can of Pepsi, he replied, "Well, she's rather quiet, and seems quite nice. Why?" A small look of concern made itself clear on Andrew's face, as he scratched his chin.

"Well, she seems... Lonely."

"Well... Isn't that her problem?"

"Oi, don't forget, we are still students of the same school. We should look out for each other too."

"Alright alright, i give. Well, what do you have in mind, wise guy?"

"Hmm... Why don't we bring her out? Hang out with her, and stuff like that... Give her a little warm feeling... And all that stuff you know."

Kermic nodded in agreement, and finished up his drink. Washing it up and throwing it in the recycle bin, he and Andrew went up to the choir room for another 'fun' day of choir...

=4 hours later=

Hikari sighed as she packed up her laptop. The conductor, Ms Ivy Lee was not very pleased with the choir's performance and lack of discipline, so she stretched the training hours. Making sure that no one had left anything behind, she packed up everything, and locked the door. She turned around only to bump into Andrew and Kermic.

"... What are you doing here? Shouldn't you be going home now," She asked sweetly.

"Well, we're gonna take you out for some fun!" Andrew gave a big grin, but Hikari shook her head.

"I'm sorry, but I have work to do." With that, she walked off.

"Well, so much for operation "Let's be friends with the lonely girl"," said Kermic.

"Well, tomorrow's a free day, and the teachers DID say we can wander about school... So why don't we..." Andrew began whispering something into Kermic's ear, and Kermic gave a wide smile.

"Sounds crazy, but then again, why not?"

What am i to do?

Okay... now this is a little stupid, since i decided to list some part of a story for POKEMON, yes POKEMON, i know i'm childish. Hey, we're young only once right? ^_^ Anyway... As usual, i got WRITER'S BLOCK! A writer's worst NIGHTMARE!!!!!! Spare me... I'm not much of a writer but still, i like to write. :)

Hmm... Here's something silly I'm writing in one of my imaginary worlds.... Yeah, I'm a day dreamer.... Not to mention i do it in class... This is a story about a lonely little girl, and her struggles to fit in her school.

Chappy 1!

"Sigh..." said young little Hikari Dawn, as she packed up her bags to leave school. Being a orphan, and having the need to look out for herself, with many job contracts, she was always the outcast, and never had much friends, even in Secondary 1. Now, in Secondary 2, carrying the position as a Prefect, things are not as simple as they seem for her now. It does not bother her much, since she IS a workaholic.

"Today, there is choir... And Kermic joined the choir too... At least we have another Bass now..." thought Hikari, as she left her classroom. Walking pass the excited teens, chattering madly amongst themselves, she walked to the choir room to wait for the door to open. Being a VERY highly respected person, she was allowed to bring her laptop for working purposes. Although, she DOES uses it for games... Turning it on, she typed furiously to meet her deadline. The next minute, she finds her laptop gone.

"Working on this crap again, huh?" said a tall boy with brown hair. He began messing around with the keys, completely destroying her work. Hikari stood up immediately, in a calm and collected manner.

"Please return my laptop to me right now. I need it to do my work."

"Oh? And what will you do it i don't?" sneered the punk. Hikari started to ponder. Although she KNEW how to fight, she was not the time that uses it over petty matters. Before she knew it, the laptop was right in front of her face, while a taller boy, most likely a Secondary 4 student stood in front of her, a strict look on his face.

"Leave this girl alone. And scram if you have nothing better else to do, Jonanthan." The boy named Jonanthan ran off, his tail between his legs. The senior sighed, and turn to face Hikari, who was like 3 heads shorter than him.

"I've never seen you around here before. Have you just joined? My name is Andrew. Andrew Liam." Andrew extended a friendly hand towards Hikari. Hikari nervously took his hand and shook it.

"I'm Hikari Dawn.. I'm your manager of some sort..."

"Andrew!" Just then, a shout came from near the stairs, as a lanky boy with dirty brown hair came up. "Kermic..." thought Hikari. Andrew gave Kermic a small smile.

"Oh, you're on time!"

"Like duh! I wouldn't miss choir for the world!"

"Wanna go down now?"

"Sure!"

Hikari watched silently as the two boys made their way down the stairs. She was hurt, but it did not really matter much to her, since she had experienced lonliness before, she was not really bothered by that.

"Everyone has their own groups... But I'm not sad... I have my work!" Smiling to herself, she began to type on her laptop. Most people would have thought she was a happy and contented child, but most people did not notice that her deep, clear emerald eyes gave off a sad glow...

Back From Camp!

Yea yea yea! Back from Camp! Boy what a day! Got nagged at by my mum for not clearing up... :P

Day 1:
We went to Kranji War Memorial and the Old Ford Factory first. Our guide was Rene, or something like that I think. I wished we stayed longer, i want to see more stuff! I didn't get enough time to see the exhibits! Miss Nurain said we had to leave already. Meanie. :( History is fun!

Kranji War Memorial is a sad place. I mean, so many people died in World War II, and yet some people are not named. It's sad...

After that, we went to have lunch, and went to the camp site. We changed to track pants already, and did general stations, which was the Station Zig Zag, which was overall easy, and the log one. The intructors, Adam and Iskandar, forgot about us girls at first. D:<

After that was dinner, and i bathed. I took quite long, cause i shared the cubicle with Sisi and Jessica. After that was debrief and supper. Yummy bread! We went to seep in our sleeping bags. But my hips hurt, i slept on my side and the wooden planks were so hard... Ow...

We learnt of course, claps, like 5 claps, which is like... I don't know how to say. And 8 claps and sixteen claps. I nearly wanted to murder my friend Wei Ren. I gave him a loser clap and he gave me a lame, loser, whatever and moron clap! GRRR!

Day 2:
We had High Elements and the CRC, which is Challenge Rope Course, first. My group, which consisted of Zi Wei, Wan Ting, Sisi and Jessica, and I went with 206, which consisted of 4 girls and 1 guy. Guess whose the unlucky one? Wei Ren. XD We did the challenge pole, whereby we had to climb up, then jump to try and catch a white pole. Wei Ren, being the odd one out, went first. His legs were shivering, and i shouted to him that i won't poke him or Keric again if he did it. And he managed to catch the pole. Sigh, no more playing for me. Then, it was my turn. Climbing was quite easy, it was the jumping part. I slowly clamber onto the pole, because i was FREAKING scared of heights. I was already crying, and it took me awhile before i actually jumped off. I was still crying after that. Man, i'm such a cry baby.

Then, it was Rock Wall and Abseling. Rock Wall and Abseling was fine, cause i was facing the wall. ^_^ I took some time climbing Rock Wall, and personally, i felt that i would lose my grip any second. Then Abseling, Wei Ren was being a jerk, saying that i should have good luck. I wanted to smack him for that. Anyway, i went up, looked down, and was scared stiff. I slid down rather smoothly, but my shoes had no friction, and i kept slipping. Sigh, man i suck.

Then, we went on a Coastal Tour, caused the weather was bad, and we couldn't do Dragon Boating. It was fine with me. ^_^ We got scolded though. :( We saw the instructors playing in the water. It was so funny. I nearly pushed one of the boys in. One of the boys pushed ME in. Well, nearly that it. The intructors played Tug-Of-War with the teachers, and the teachers won 2-1! Well, the second game was when Miss Nurain entered. I should have taken my camera! RAWR.

We went to sleep after a quick shower and supper.

Day 3: (Today!)
We cleaned up, and packed. Unfortunately, my classed had to clean the toilet. It was so not nice, cause there was a lot of sand to be cleaned. After awhile, (and a lot of carrying of buckets) we finished. I was rather proud, because i did a small portion of the work TOGETHER with the others. Of course, i deserve no right to be proud, cause the others did most of the work. THe boys were unlucky though, cause they had water splashed onto them by the guy instructors. :D

The Normal Stream got scolded for who knows what reasons. After some debrief, we departed the camp site. I was so sad, i want to go back!

It was overall fun, althought i felt sick in the head several times because of the sun. But i hope we can have more camps! Ugh, but i shouted so much. I'm not sure if i can sing on monday's choir practice. I am so dead.

What a day....

Sigh today is tiring.... let's review....

Before recess was okay..... After that was drama... My group sat there and talk...
and talk...
and talk...
and talk...
and talked. I gave them a draft script i made, and Nian Cai, one of the guys started saying it was bad, why wasn't it anti Tian Tian or something. Sheesh, i'm not letting the whole group go up against her. Sure, i may not like her myself, but still, she's a fellow classmate. Why am i making the decision? Cause i'm the Stage Manager.

Ms Chan went to talk to Nian Cai, and things got easier a little. I nearly broke down cause i couldn't, i just couldn't take it anymore. I mena, i put in effort, JUST to help them, save up some work, and they object it like almost nothing. If they think it's so easy, they try and do it! not that i'm trying to be mean. Ms Grace was made at teh boys cause they were not co-operating, i really don't care.

Then came PWE, i'm doing YOG, and i'm one of those doing some assembly YOG. Now, i have to do the drama script, whooooo peee....

First Post!

Hi all who actually took the time to see my blog! XD I am Ilin from Deyi, some of you may know me. *shrugs* Well... Nothing to put here for now! Signing off!